What Am I Searching For?

Oh, no, dear friend
I'm not falling for that
That psychological lingo
No, I am not searching
For an identity for myself.
Sam, Samar, Samaren, Sammu
Samson, Sambo, Samarendra
Reddy garu, Doc, Genius, 
Intelligent, Philosopher, ...
Are enough to have me confused
For me to want another identity.
What I am searching for
I know not well myself
Though if I had to hazard a guess
It will be to cease existing
FOREVER.