I am told that it is my own misunderstanding that someone thinks and indeed called me a “psychopath” and that someone else laughed at me for some other reason.
However, the point is, it does not matter whether I misunderstood or correctly understood those things. The point is that I felt shocked given my own self-identity of being someone or the other who was not a psychopath and deserved to not be laughed at.
I told the person who tried to tell me that I misunderstood those two persons, “In any case, may be it is God’s way of making me misunderstand and thereby giving me a reason to retire from all activities and devote myself to spiritual contemplation.”
However, that is also not the point.
The point is that as long as you have any identity perceived by you to be different from that of others, that leads to suffering one way or another. That is the basic funda of ignorance, whereby you take yourself to be a particular body-mind with a distinct personality, history and set of characteristics set apart from the rest of the world.
Hence, even if it is a case of misunderstanding, it still behooves one to pursue and find the truth of one’s correct and true identity because otherwise one will be subject to these periodic crises of various kinds and sorts whereby we think our self-identity is being abused or under siege/threat.
Only understanding the nondual truth that “there are no others” will set one free.
To understand the nondual truth, one has to be in silent contemplation.
So, irrespective of whether it was a misunderstanding or correct understanding of what was said to me, the course of action is clear – renounce the world mentally and emotionally and investigate “Who am I?”, as pointed out also by Ramana Maharshi in his very first book with that very title.
Know Thyself 