The “Partial” Surrender

God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son
Abraham was ready to sacrifice.

That is so easy
All too easy.

I have no son
God is asking me
To sacrifice myself.

That is so difficult
So difficult.

No sooner than I begin
To let go of space and time
Something in me
Springs back to life
And I retrace my steps
Back into myself.

Yet something in me
Is giving in
Something in me
Is giving up.

The dawn 
Overtakes the night 
Slowly, never all at once.